We took a whole entourage of people: Me, Rob, Ruben, Colleen, Shelby. Driving the hour. Getting lost. (We got lost on the way to Tenacious D, too - strange, isn't it?) Getting found. Getting seats.
I think I enjoyed some of her other concerts more. I can't remember why, but I seem to recall more enjoyment. Though she did play her covers of "Famous Blue Raincoat" and "Landslide" - which are two of my favorite songs of all time. She didn't do "Hey Jupiter", which is one of my favorite Tori songs, but what're you gonna do? She has a set list, and "Hey Jupiter" didn't make the cut. But that's not really the point.
I think the point is that I'm getting old. Or maybe it's not old, maybe it's just different. I can't deal in crowds very well, anymore. They make me anxious. I felt this from time to time when I first moved down here. But that was part of the adjustment from sparse population to not-so-sparse population.
Now it's something different. People are starting to make me nervous. When I was in high school, I took the Myers-Briggs personality test three different times. I was an ENFP (Extroverted Intuitive Feeling Perceptive) every time. But in the time between my sophomore year and my senior year, the balance of my scores between Extroverted and Introverted started to align. I went from off-the-charts extrovert to almost equal extrovert-introvert.
The difference between the extrovert and the introvert is that the extrovert thrives on people; gets their energy from them. The introvert finds it taxing to be around people and would prefer to be alone or in a small group.
The older I get, the more I'm feeling the pull of introversion. Maybe it's just easier that way: If you're alone, you don't have to deal with the emotional demands of others. You can do your own thing and not have to worry about being too selfish or talking too much or saying the wrong thing.
I don't know what's happening, but I don't exactly like it. I don't exactly not like it, either, though. It's a strange transition. One I can't quite fathom.
And that has everything in the world to do with Tori, doesn't it?