Housing Project

We just got a form from our apartment management company with a short survey asking us if we planned to stay on for the 2002-2003 leasing year. 2002-2003 seems much more like a period of time I lived in a dream of the future and much less like an actual time. Even though 2002 is rushing toward me at the speed of fantastic light, it just doesn't seem possible that it's here already. All those other years I handled. 2000 seemed inevitable. 2001 was a little early, but I could cope. But 2002? I just can't deal.

In any case, they're raising our rent by another $50. They've raised it by $20 every other year we've lived there. But this year? This year it's too much.

I've lived in this apartment since November of 1998. When I move out, I will have lived there for nearly four years. That's the longest I've lived anywhere since I moved out of my parents house in 1997. (I moved four times between September of 1997 and November of 1998. Maybe this was just temporal karma.)

But $705/mth for rent is where I draw the line. This is where I stand up to be counted. I say, "That is too much money for the services you provide and I kindly decline." So we're out. We're gone. The survey will go back with the checkmarks of movement. And we'll be out...

I hate moving. I really do. I know I haven't done it for four years, now, but I remember how horrible it was. And now I have so much more stuff that it's going to be even harder. Life creeps on like a disease of acquisition and there's not that much you can do to stop it.

Rob (who seems to want to keep living with me - for whatever reason) and I discussed a nice townhouse. Possibly a condo. I'd love to live somewhere that had a fireplace again.

A lovely townhouse with a fireplace and a loft. A half bath on the main floor and two full bathrooms upstairs.

In my dream, everything is perfect. Reality will probably be a little different, but I'll search for what I want and settle for what I can get.

After all, that's what life is: Striking a harmonious balance between what you'd like to have and what you can get.

(Sometimes, though, you don't have to settle for what you can get - you can keep looking. I promise.)